A simple reminder for me and maybe a pre submission of reflective writing :D

Well, I can hardly believe that I'm at the ninth week of semester IMU MBBS.
And this week is the best part of the whole semester's programme.
NURSING WEEK :D
Ok, let me tell you briefly about what we had on this nursing week.
Later in a physician's career, he/she have to deal with so many cases.
And to successfully deliver a proper healthcare to a particular patient, a doctor have to cooperate with the nurses and other healthcare members.
So, that's what we did.
Learning how nurses do their job.
The only experience on that because after this, what we have to do is LEARNING THE DOCTOR'S JOB.
We were sent to Hospital Tunku Jaafar, Seremban for that particular programme.
I knew that the hospital will be havoc and busy but I never thought that it would be that busy. And stressful.
I was placed at the male surgical ward.
I learned how to feed patients using RT, practicing my bp taking skill, and a little bit on behavioral science or ethics maybe.
Hahah, and we were scolded.
Yeah, people will never expect that we are the FIRST YEAR MEDICAL STUDENT. And we know almost nothing about how to play your our in the ward.
Or maybe we should introduce ourselves as FIRST SEMESTER MEDICAL STUDENT.
Or just be really truly honest that we have entered the course for about 9 weeks and that's it.
Yeah, everybody's too busy to ask and even think of that.
How can the not-so-knowledgeable people come into the ward and introducing themselves as medical students?
Hahah.
But I'll take it as a lesson.
And that's the nature of human being.
Learning from mistakes.
And to build more a doctorish identity in myself.
Yeah, I should.
And sorry for everyone-doctors, patients, nurses.
Because we didn't give much help :D
But believe me, we'll improve. In Shaa Allah.

Someone please tell me that I will be a good doctor on the straight path and with the only  intention, purely to seek Allah's approval.

Big girl don't cry :D

Alhamdulillah, almost two months being a university student.
How do I feel?
I feel like I'm taking the wrong decision. And why is that happen?
The life doesn't come like what I want it to.
And there's something that I keep very deep inside my heart.
One thing that sometimes make me feel that I'm the worst person on earth.
Am I?
Maybe.
Yeah, Allah grant our prays based on what we need instead of what we really want.
And this evil inside me, how can I kill it?
Because I can't, then I should fight.
Someone please tell me, I can go through all this. Please :D

Follow your light :D

A month plus, being a uni student.
Everything seems to be okay.
No more dilemma, as I can take everything as a challenge.
It feels different.
To be a grown up girl.
I suddenly remember about all those immature things I've done.
One sided love, silly prank and all those crap.
Nothing much to say, but follow your light, guys |as taken from The Croods| :D
Please tell the world, I'm fine.

DAY 3: Getting Better In What Way?

Today is extremely tiring.
With all of those social explicit contents, I think I'm immune to them.
Getting better in adapting myself but I am sure I won't do that.

Someone please tell me, I will be strong enough to resist all the attempts that try to make my heart dark.

DAY 2: To Do Or Not To Do

We came quite late in the morning lecture.
But the lecture session goes well until the next lecture which happened to be the prank from our seniors.
That was fun. |Its more than fun|
The next part is meeting with seniors.
This is where the credibility of me, as a Muslim, was a bit distracted.
The openness was not in the way that we, Muslims used to learn and practice.
Its an absolute openness in the conversation relating to sex and pornography.
I'm a Muslim.
Its okay.
The believes and social background are different.
In Shaa Allah, everything will be fine

Someone please tell me, just take the difference as the way for you to strengthen your believe and improve yourself to be a better person in interacting with others.

A Big Step For A Big Dream To Actually Happen

DAY 1 AS A MEDICAL STUDENT

HeHo :D
Sharing the feelings when I am now officially a medical student (Alhamdulillah)~

Nothing To Expect
To tell everyone the truth, I am the first one in my family who's accepted to enter a medical school.
Obviously, they are all not interested in such career and way of life.
Thus, I got no tales, fictions nor myths about medical school from firsthand experience.
I don't really know what's going on and what will happen in the future.
Please someone tell me, "Its okay, this is only your first day".

Where's My Confidence?
I've left the routine of studying for so long. More than two months and all my skills of studying just somehow vanished.
And as everyone will expect that medical student should spend more and most time on studying, I don't have the confidence to do so.
Am I good enough for this?
Is this the right choice I've made?
Please someone tell me, "Don't worry. You're not used to the surrounding yet. Later you'll find yourself comfortable with this".

And Where's My Friendly Lalalala Attitude?
I'm nervous. I'm curious.
I couldn't drag my mouth to start a conversation with others.
No, not on the first day.
I am a good chatter and why is that in all of sudden I became a silent little coward?
Please someone tell me, "Cheer up. Everyone feels the same. Its a very new environment. Get your act straight and you'll be fine".

Akhir Sebuah Cerita

Lamanya tak update blog ni..
Bukan setakat bersawang, tapi lebih tepat lagi dah reput dimakan anai2.. Hahah..
So memang banyak janji yang tak ditepati..
Cerita aidilfitri pun masih tergantung tanpa penghujung..
Tapi biarlah ia berakhir sendiri.. Sob3.. Hahah..
So, why is it AKHIR SEBUAH CERITA???
Well, mungkin berkaitan dengan fasa hidup baru sekarang..
Dan pengakhiran fasa hidup sebelumnya..
Ketepikan tu dulu..
Jadi sebelum ini dunia digemparkan dengan ramalan puak Mayan tentang tarikh pengakhiran episod penghidupan manusia di muka bumi..
Dan sesungguhnya kiamat itu adalah rahsia Allah S.W.T. dan tidak dapat diramal oleh sesiapapun..
Apa yang penting, janji Allah itu pasti dan sebagai hamba, manusia sepatutunya sentiasa bersedia untuk bekalan hari akhirat..
Maka, ramalan itu salah sama sekali dan bumi ini masih belum berakhir kisahnya..
Entahkan esok, entahkan lusa ataupun sebaik post ini dipublish, nobody knows.
Ok, back to the chirp chirp..
Akhir sebuah cerita was one of my luahan hati waktu my 18th birthday..
At that time I was very determined to leave every single unwanted feelings I ever had..
Tapi seriously, it was hard..
Did I said that its hard??? Yeah, but its not impossible..
Finally here in 2013, I manage to create the ending..
Not a happy ending nor a sad ending..
It was a silent ending..
Every hatred, obsession and likey2 stuff, I left them in 2012 time capsule..
I guess it wasn't so hard since its the 15th day of 2013 and I still stand here, safe and soundly..
#I actually got nothing to say.. Really ah :D
Good luck with 2013..