DAY 3: Getting Better In What Way?

Today is extremely tiring.
With all of those social explicit contents, I think I'm immune to them.
Getting better in adapting myself but I am sure I won't do that.

Someone please tell me, I will be strong enough to resist all the attempts that try to make my heart dark.

DAY 2: To Do Or Not To Do

We came quite late in the morning lecture.
But the lecture session goes well until the next lecture which happened to be the prank from our seniors.
That was fun. |Its more than fun|
The next part is meeting with seniors.
This is where the credibility of me, as a Muslim, was a bit distracted.
The openness was not in the way that we, Muslims used to learn and practice.
Its an absolute openness in the conversation relating to sex and pornography.
I'm a Muslim.
Its okay.
The believes and social background are different.
In Shaa Allah, everything will be fine

Someone please tell me, just take the difference as the way for you to strengthen your believe and improve yourself to be a better person in interacting with others.

A Big Step For A Big Dream To Actually Happen

DAY 1 AS A MEDICAL STUDENT

HeHo :D
Sharing the feelings when I am now officially a medical student (Alhamdulillah)~

Nothing To Expect
To tell everyone the truth, I am the first one in my family who's accepted to enter a medical school.
Obviously, they are all not interested in such career and way of life.
Thus, I got no tales, fictions nor myths about medical school from firsthand experience.
I don't really know what's going on and what will happen in the future.
Please someone tell me, "Its okay, this is only your first day".

Where's My Confidence?
I've left the routine of studying for so long. More than two months and all my skills of studying just somehow vanished.
And as everyone will expect that medical student should spend more and most time on studying, I don't have the confidence to do so.
Am I good enough for this?
Is this the right choice I've made?
Please someone tell me, "Don't worry. You're not used to the surrounding yet. Later you'll find yourself comfortable with this".

And Where's My Friendly Lalalala Attitude?
I'm nervous. I'm curious.
I couldn't drag my mouth to start a conversation with others.
No, not on the first day.
I am a good chatter and why is that in all of sudden I became a silent little coward?
Please someone tell me, "Cheer up. Everyone feels the same. Its a very new environment. Get your act straight and you'll be fine".

Akhir Sebuah Cerita

Lamanya tak update blog ni..
Bukan setakat bersawang, tapi lebih tepat lagi dah reput dimakan anai2.. Hahah..
So memang banyak janji yang tak ditepati..
Cerita aidilfitri pun masih tergantung tanpa penghujung..
Tapi biarlah ia berakhir sendiri.. Sob3.. Hahah..
So, why is it AKHIR SEBUAH CERITA???
Well, mungkin berkaitan dengan fasa hidup baru sekarang..
Dan pengakhiran fasa hidup sebelumnya..
Ketepikan tu dulu..
Jadi sebelum ini dunia digemparkan dengan ramalan puak Mayan tentang tarikh pengakhiran episod penghidupan manusia di muka bumi..
Dan sesungguhnya kiamat itu adalah rahsia Allah S.W.T. dan tidak dapat diramal oleh sesiapapun..
Apa yang penting, janji Allah itu pasti dan sebagai hamba, manusia sepatutunya sentiasa bersedia untuk bekalan hari akhirat..
Maka, ramalan itu salah sama sekali dan bumi ini masih belum berakhir kisahnya..
Entahkan esok, entahkan lusa ataupun sebaik post ini dipublish, nobody knows.
Ok, back to the chirp chirp..
Akhir sebuah cerita was one of my luahan hati waktu my 18th birthday..
At that time I was very determined to leave every single unwanted feelings I ever had..
Tapi seriously, it was hard..
Did I said that its hard??? Yeah, but its not impossible..
Finally here in 2013, I manage to create the ending..
Not a happy ending nor a sad ending..
It was a silent ending..
Every hatred, obsession and likey2 stuff, I left them in 2012 time capsule..
I guess it wasn't so hard since its the 15th day of 2013 and I still stand here, safe and soundly..
#I actually got nothing to say.. Really ah :D
Good luck with 2013..

IMAN

Sangat terkesan bila membaca tanda2 lemahnya iman..
Banyak betul kekurangan dalam melalui kehidupan ni..
Goyah betul iman bila ada benda2 yang membentangkan nikmat dunia..
Betullah, tak siapa terlepas dari melakukan dosa..
Sometimes, rasanya macam diri baik..
Hasutan syaitan lah..
Ada juga masanya rasa sangat berdosa..
Entahlah..
Lately, banyak juga benda yang dah berubah..
Kata hati, sometimes macam parasite lah..
Tapi ada benda yang tak boleh dikawal..
Sudah maklum akan kesalahannya, tapi masih diteruskan..
Lemahnya lah iman..
Mungkin kesilapannya bila tak menyedari setiap perkara yang Allah kurniakan tu mengandungi ujian untuk setiap hambanya..
Yang kuat imannya, akan mengambil pengajaran atas setiap sesuatu yang berlaku..

Allahumma salli 'ala,
Sayyidina,
Muhammadin an-Nabiyyi al-ummiyyi,
Wa 'ala alihi wa sahbihi wa sallim.
(O Allah, send your peace and blessings upon our Master Muhammad, the Unlettered Prophet, and upon his family and companions.)
O My Lord,
My sins are like
The highest mountain;
My good deeds
Are very few
They’re like a small pebble.
I turn to You
My heart full of shame,
My eyes full of tears.
Bestow Your
Forgiveness and Mercy
Upon me.
Ya Allah,
Send your peace and blessings
On the Final Prophet,
And his family,
And companions,
And those who follow him.

Sean Murphy: I Believe Lyrics

Sean Murphy - I Believe LYRICS


[VERSE]

Fallin' heroes are my friends
Learn to fight till the very end
Find new life underneath the soul
Learn to believe those never known
Pilots flying in the sky
Clouds leave tears when humans cry
Some may dance while others sing
In the end we're all the same



[CHORUS]

I Believe, I Believe, I Believe
Jump into the wind and come fly with me tonight
I Believe, I Believe, I Believe
No one is a stranger if you see them in the light
It's a simple little dream but it means a lot to me
Feather feather, birds we all flock together
There's a melody we find, perfect rhythm in our mind
You're not alone




[VERSE]

We can never let the love come down
Scattered into pieces, walking around and round'
Take a ride, come with me, bring a friend, maybe three
Because you know i gotta see
All the promises we never kept
We love to be the perfect match
As time burns roses, we make dreams
I saw darkness slip away
It was a beautiful day.

[CHORUS]

I Believe, I Believe, I Believe
Jump into the wind and come fly with me tonight
I Believe, I Believe, I Believe
No one is a stranger if you see them in the light
It's a simple little dream but it means a lot to me
Feather feather, birds we all flock together
There's a melody we find, perfect rhythm in our mind
You're not alone

[BRIDGE]

Come my way, come today
Gotta let the music play, another way to say
Love, my way people say
Never let the love drop.




[CHORUS]

I Believe, I Believe, I Believe
Jump into the wind and come fly with me tonight
I Believe, I Believe, I Believe
No one is a stranger if you see them in the light
It's a simple little dream but it means a lot to me
Feather feather, birds we all flock together
There's a melody we find, perfect rhythm in our mind
You're not alone

I DO BELIEVE THAT ONE DAY, I'LL BE A GREAT DOCTOR< WHO CONTRIBUTE TO MY PARENTS, FAMILY, ISLAM, COMMUNITY AND THE COUNTRY. I BELIEVE, I BELIEVE, I BELIEVE.

Diari Aidilfitri 1433 H (Part 01)

1 Syawal
Hari raya dengan rekod terbaik :)
Alhamdulillah..
Why? Sebab rasanya sepanjang 18 tahun beraya tahun nilah yang paling produktif (tak tidur lepas subuh)..
So kemas2, then bersedia untuk Solat Sunat Aidilfitri..
Tak pakai baju raya pun~

Tak clear.. Najiha punya kerja :O

Di masjid, Alhamdulillah ramai juga golongan perempuan..
Tapi mostly makcik2 yang selalu jumpa waktu terawih, yang dah janji nak jumpa pada pagi raya~
Khutbah raya sangat seronok tapi mengantuk sikit :) |malam raya tidur sikit je|
Balik, bersiap-siap dan makan~

Ok, makan dulu untuk hari ini~

Lauk raya??
1. Ketupat (its a must)
2. Rendang rusa (authentic kan??)
3. Ayam kampung masak merah
4. Sambal kacang
5. Kuah lodeh

Then, bermaafan and photoshoot session..
Semua pun wearing the same colour termasuklah family Kak Long and Kak Ngah yang tak beraya bersama kami~

Baju raya, me as "Iron Lady" :O

Ragam minta minta maaf :D

Ok, situ situ sana sini~

Ok, family potrait~

More merepek merepek~

After semua-semua, bergerak ke rumah nenek sebelah emak..

Riding on "kereta bujang"

At Nenek's

Next destination, rumah arwah datuk sebelah ayah..

entah apa apa

So, 1 Syawal punya aktivit berakhir drngan sangat cepat..

By zohor, dah kembali di rumah dan tidur..

2 Syawal

Pagi, tak ada apa-apa..

Then tengahari, Pak Unggal and family datang ziarah..

Petang pula, nenek and keluarga busu Lan datang..

Kemudian kami berkonvoi sama-sama beraya rumah adik-beradik emak..

Dalam kereta

Oh, lupa pula..

Raya kedua ni my birthday.. 

Sama juga dengan my sister..

So, I'm 18 and she's 27..

Jadi Kak Ngah ada belikan kami baju sama untuk dipakai pada hari lahir :D

At Pokde's

Sempat juga nak cakap thanks for those yang wish..

Maxis and Celcom, thanks for the free services..

Sorry tak dapat nak call semua..

Tapi orang2 penting yang born to be my birthday companion memang tak dilupakanlah~

Alhamdulillah, semoga peningkatan umur ini mengajar I supaya 

lebih menghargai kehidupan dan sentiasa berusaha menjadi lebih baik :D *quoted from a friend of mine

Before keluar beraya ;D

::LaLaLa::

That's the end of my 2nd Syawal..

To be continued..