Tuesday, March 28, 2017

How is it going??? #fyear

Assalamualaikum :)

Hello, abandoned world!!
It is currently 4:24 am and I am trying to find any possible way to refrain myself from finishing my assignment (ahah, let me rest my mind for a while please~)

So today Kak Long suddenly reminds me that I used to be a blogger (if you consider writing in a blog once a year as a blogger, then yes, I am a blogger). So I decided to visit my blog and see what is going on here. (though I know I only have a handful of followers and my nuffnang account only earns RM0.25 after like 10 years?)

Just an update on my academic life: I am currently in my 'F' year on med school. Things has been going pretty well (amiin) but hectic at the same time. People do expect A LOT from us but sometimes I think I don't really have enough. But I REALLY want to finish this and go on with  my life (I mean, get a job, moving on to the next step). Please pray for me and my colleagues so that we could all pass this phase and treat you all with confidence.

On the other hand, things still going the same in the heart and emotion department. No update. Not ready to update. Not restarting any time soon. Nope. Nope. Nope. Not ready. Nope. THE TIME hasn't come yet. Nope. Nope. Nope!!!! Hahah.

What else...

Ok on physical, health and wellbeing..
Recently I found out that I might have underestimated my rate of weight gain throughout MY ADOLESCENCE period. Considering the risk factor of hypertension and diabetes that run in the family, I decided to work out a bit. Lets see how long this will last. and my height stays the same though.

Ok thats it. Took too much coffee and it gives me diuretic and laxative effects.

Bye bye.

Regards,
Nuramalina Mazeli
Seremban, 2017

Tuesday, January 20, 2015

Travel Guide for Students (Malaysia)

Assalamualaikum.
I did not post anything in 2014 and that is quite an achievement for a social media freak like me!(phew)
|tiup tiup habuk|

Jadi banyaklah benda yang dah jadi throughout 2014. Ada yang manis, ada yang tak berapa nak manis. So nak dijadikan cerita, kitorang baru je dapat results untuk our first professional exam. Alhamdulillah, we made it to our third year. Macam tak percaya. So we are planning to go on a holiday soon.

Bila nak holiday lagi-lagi as student yang tak berapa nak ada duit macam kita-kita ni, banyak checklist kena buat, banyak benda kena list and ambil kira. I'll share apa yang biasanya kita listkan for holiday macam nilah untuk kemudahan and guide semua. Everything is based on our vacation to Pulau Pangkor somewhere in April 2013 lepas sebab rasanya that is a succesful vacation (heheh?).



1. Decide geng cuti cuti anda
Ini memang crucial in the sense that korang nak tahu berapa ramai yang akan join so later kita tak ada masalah dengan transport and accommodation. So bila dah decide, siapa nak pergi and siapa nak tinggal. Jangan paksa kalau kawan tu taknak pergi sebab tak bestlah kalau paksa kawan tu spend duit, masa cuti dia dengan kita bila dia separuh hati je nak pergi.

2. Kenali geng cuti cuti anda
Ok, kebanyakan masa kita akan travel dengan kawan-kawan rapat kita. Memanglah kenal tapi kita akan kenal dengan kawan-kawan kita lebih dekat bila bermusafir. Jadi sebelum start tu, mesti ada idea apa kebiasaan and alahan travel mereka. Tak boleh naik bas ke, mabuk laut ke, tak boleh travel siang ke, tak boleh tidur atas lantai ke, tak boleh jalan jauh ke. Ini penting jugalah so that vacation korang nanti taklah ada geng yang bad mood sebab dia mabuk sepanjang jalan. Lepastu nanti bila kita dah dalam perjalanan, kawan tu buat gaya pelik ke, bersangka baiklah sebab kita ada idea. Taklah suka-suka kutuk ke apa. Hmm.

3. Tentukan destination
Part ni tricky sikit. Ada orang nak ke laut. Ada nak shopping. Ada nak buat activity. Ada nak bergambar je. So memang tricky lah. Kena give and take antara satu sama lain. Categorize tempat-tempat pilihan tu. eg: pulau (redang, perhentian) water sports (sunway lagoon, lost world of tambun) nature (taman negara, sekeping serendah retreat). Lepastu match dengan financial budget korang and accessibility korang to that destination. Kira sana kira sini gaduh sana gaduh sini, dapatlah decide mana nak pergi.

Ok, dah mengantuk In shaa Allah sambung lagi nanti. Belanja gambar lama dulu :)




Wednesday, December 4, 2013

New

Just now, someone suggested that I might have bipolar disorder. And when I was thinking of what I should write tonight, I started to realize that that fact may be true. I've admitted so many times that I don't understand myself. And till now, I don't really know what's my goal or even who's the real me behind this name?

There's a long list of things I did that contradict to the person I want to be. Or maybe The person I thought I would. Some of them are jut little little things that doesn't affect my life much. But couple of them really need anew me in order to get rid of them.

The number one thing is something that make me regret for my whole life I think. And a new me from inside should settle that. I don't think its difficult but still, I hope everything will go just fine.

The second one is also some silly stuff. But it had been lingering around me for more than half a decade. So I started this programme called "HEALING" to myself. In one year, I should manage t get rid of everything in shaa Allah :) Down here, my countdown :)

Goodbye memories, goodbye lust. 

Someone or maybe everyone should pray for my success in this war against me. And tell me I can :) 



Thursday, October 17, 2013

Something Fragile Inside Me

Alhamdulillah, I manage to proceed to the second semester.
Tho the result of my foundation module doesn't came out too good.
But still, Alhamdulillah.

I'm currently studying cardiovascular module and I have to admit this, CVS is super cool!!
But, I learned about heart like A LOT.
And it hurts to know the truth that heart attack is more complicated than art attack.
And surely, HEART IS FRAGILE.

At the same time, there's another fragile thing called heart but somehow different as this stuff is virtual.
And I'm trying to keep this thing in the best state but believe me, its hard.

I don't really know what I'm trying to deliver here.
But I wish that someone could tell me, "Don't be sad".

Tuesday, July 2, 2013

To Change


It is easier said than done. To change means to sacrifice the things that has been a part of your life for so long. To leave your habit that add the spice to your monotonous life. To stay away from your friends and fun that usually cheer up your weekends. But you have to. Even if you’re wearing a cloth with some stain on it, your mum and even you yourself want it to be changed. Then what if we’ve committed too much sins, and our wrongdoings are piling up, covering our good deeds? Change.
To change is not about doing big things abruptly. It is not about all or none thingy, where you have to change every single thing in your life all at once or you don’t have to change at all. Take one step at a time. Or  you couldn’t afford it. Yes, some may but believe me, most couldn’t. In life, we don’t see a little kid is born and suddenly can talk. Yes, in some cases but how rare does this happen and in what purpose does Allah let this happening? The talking kids are big names in Islam, that convey the truth with the permission of Allah Almighty. But we’re ordinary people. We want to change and straighten our path towards the ridha of Allah. We want to leave our way of life that had bring us far far away from Allah. That’s why we want to change.
We’re not talking about waking up in the middle of the night, performing 8 rakaat of prayer or spending half of our salary every month for charity, suddenly. Yes, we may not that but I’m afraid that if its too sudden, it’ll be hard to stay istiqamah. Change the small things first. Our niat on doing every single thing, have we specify it just for Allah? The things about Islam that we’ve learned in primary scohol, have we practiced them all? Have we recited basmalah in every single deed? Have we entered the toilet by our left foot? Have we practiced reciting the prayer of entering and leaving the toilet, sleeping and waking up, leaving and entering home and other prayers that we’ve learned since we were kids? Have we?
Yes, we can do big things straight away but remember, the small things can lead to big effects. If we start to do the small small things in life, we’ll appreciate the big things even more. We’re doing small things that remind us of Allah in every deed. Then it’ll give us strength to do the big things. Because small things taught us to believe, remember and be loyal to Allah at all times. In Shaa Allah.
Finally, lets change to be a better muslim. Change positively, and the most important is istiqamah.
p/s this is the expression of my thoughts, may be wrong but lets just take the good thing and live a good islamic way of life :D

Someone please tell me, I can change myself positively, lillah.


Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Welcome to the big big world :D

Ahah, there's nothing much to talk about.
June reminds me of something big that happened in my life.
In fact the biggest thing that changed my whole route of my monotonous life.
What is it?
Let me keep it as a secret :D
It may be very shameful to share about it here though~

Lately, I've got this very big problem.
Every single time I tried to pull myself away from that thing, I just couldn't help it.
Yeah, I feel like the biggest sinner in the world for this.
Alhamdulillah, now I feel better as I manage to get my sense of consideration back, to think of every single stuff as a serious business.
Life is not a joke, guys.
If you do something wrong, you may seek for forgiveness, or repentance but that thing will always haunt you.

Maybe I've neglected some important aspects and thus, I felt like a NOT ME.
Hahah, what's that?
Whatever lah kan.
Lets be the real me.
The one that when she smiles, she meant it. The one that when she talk, she thinks of it.
And the most crucial part is, a daughter that her parents can be proud of, her family can be relied on and her friends can be trusted on.

Additional to all these things, I just can't help myself from thinking that I may not be on the right path; the oath that I really want to follow. Someone please tell me, this is the best path for me and I have to endure all the challenges that come as they are all tests from Allah S.W.T :D